hello

My periodic bouts of depression is back. I cannot bring myself to go to work. What is wrong with me?

All in all, I would say things are great. Then why do I feel so useless?

He loves me so much, and shows me that. I can see that. Yesterday we spoke for about an hour or more, about our future. I'm really happy that he's beginning to think in terms of 'us', but at the same time I'm worried that I am putting unnecessary pressure on him. That wouldn't be fair, just like how I do not like people to have expectations on me.

Two person asked me what happened to my blog, and whether I am okay. Is it that obvious that deletion of blog is related to emotional instability?

I need to pick myself up soon. Really really soon. I need to get out of this rat race very very soon. I cannot afford to stay here forever.

But I really feel lucky today, to have him in my life. I was not okay when I was on the phone with him today, and he rushed home just to check on me, and to cuddle me to sleep. :)