things are going great

I just came back from hometown. When I was there, there were still sufferings. Basically he was out chilling with his mates all the time, occasionally remembering me.

But now that I'm back, it's totally... different. I saw him for the first time last night, and he was really really affectionate. Like he really missed me. And all the good things.

But he was drunk and high.

This morning when he was sober it was really sweet too.

Could it be because I no longer expect too much? Like today, we were supposed to be together at night, but I had to be away, and I didn't even feel insecure.

This feels like a good year, as if my prayers were answered. I hope our relationship will be even better than this. Cos I love him from the bottom of my heart.

He told me that I'm the one. And that I'm almost perfect, except that he really likes someone more feminine. How do I do this? I can't wear skirts, I have ugly legs!

HELP!

Please God, let this be continue... let him love me more and more.