peak of it

I've reached the peak of insecurity.

A friend said that sometimes insecurity is the cause of failure of a relationship.

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME???

Is it because I'm too free? I have work to do. I go out less often with people these days, but it's because I'd rather be with him.

Can someone just say loser, cos I really feel like one.

I just want him to tell me everything is okay. Just poufan, until everything is okay, then he can just let me be.

I hate his friend. The things he say just make me feel worse. Maybe I should know better. Just keep away from negative people.

Why don't I have faith in him? Even if he answers late, or just don't answer, I assume he's busy talking to someone else, and would rather talk to them, rather than me.

Why do I feel like that? Can I take away the feeling? I need to be that strong independent person I once was.

Is this love? I don't know what this is. This is a typical case of hand grabbing the sand tighter and tighter, finally to have none left, as it has all escaped through the gaps.

Love me, please love me. Please love me. Please love me. Love me, please love me. Love me, please love me. I don't want anyone else, just you. Just you. Don't ever give up on me. Please never never ever give up on me, cos I will never let you go.

Please.