the next stage

We managed to patch things up but things are somewhat different.

I feel hurt at everything, not realising that I am the only one holding on, whereas he has already moved on to the next stage of relationship. I am still needy, and I still want to be with him all the time, but he is tired of the honeymoon stage already.

Friends are more important to him, and he can run off seeing them even when he's sick. I feel that staying over at his house is a burden to him, because then he will need to take care of my needs. I'm still here, just waiting for his plans. He can just go off, without informing me of anything.

I think it's time I start doing my own things, and give him a taste of his own medicine. Or rather, move on to the next stage of the relationship.

My heart is so numb. I'm so stupid to just let go of myself. I need to take check of my feelings. I fell in too deep.