i want a love that will last

it hurts it hurts it hurts

we are back together but it seems so different.

yesterday we had really good sex, in my opinion. he told me he was really happy that he was with me again.

but today i checked my phone and the last time he called me was 12 pm yesterday and it is 10 pm today. i mean ive spoken to him since then, since i called him, and i stayed over at his place.

what does this all mean? he used to call me after his work and all. what the hell is going on?

does he only want me for sex? have i misunderstood yesterday? i felt that yesterday was really meaningful. i thought it was us making love. i thought he enjoyed it. i thought he said he's happy we are back together. i thought so many things.

and i keep thinking and thinking. what is he looking for?